Well today was a New day & went pretty smoothly i think :) it was 9 days since I last saw Brian & we went out to dinner just He, Makenzy & I & everything went smoothly :) Last sunday a week ago was rough for me I didnt have much contact with him & I sat with Joni & Mike @ church I just didn't want to be close to him...
Emily had a Dream & told me about it after service she said God came to her & told her to tell me NOT to worry that where I am in my life was RIGHT where he wants me to be & that I dotn need to worry WOW! this news felt SO GREAT to me! & was just what I needed!
Well on Wed Brian txt me I had not responded to ANY of his previous txts that week yet & asked if I wanted to go to Ruby tuesday I didnt txt bk & he called n my way home & asked if i wanted to go & i said not really.. & asked who was going he said it would just be us 2 & i tild him I had already made plans & he got upset & got off the phone.. when I got home that night the things I had ordered from pampered chef were at the house that he had dropped off along with my House key okay... I wasnt sure what to think BUT it was okay just something else that I knew was going to happen eventually
SO tonight we talked about it & about him keeping Makenzy & trying to make a schedule & need to set boundaries when it comes to her & our relationship I REALLY want him to be a part of her life I dotn feel like it would be fair to her for me to cut him out completely he has been such a Positive influence for her & she NEEDS a positive male role model & as far as our talk Brian is leaving all of this up to me.
I just want God's will as he has done in the past 2 months he sure has shown me! :)
All I can do is continue to read the bible & need to do that a lil more than i have & I talk to GOD & Pray often for him to give me strength to get through all of this
Philippians 4:13
ALSO today Emily took pics of me & Mak I'm SO EXCITED! we have not had pics together "just us" since 2008! I can't wait to see them!
♥ Have a good night all :)
